persevere.

i’m finally back blogging once again, after a nearly 4 months break!
but i’m just feeling the urge to blog about sth today!

the day just started like any other usual day: with me lying on the bed and didn’t want to wake up at all…..
left my house at 7.40am, and headed to JW building for the ever fun-filled SOT lesson! :)
we started by praising & worshipping God at our seats and enjoying God’s presence..
i’ve always had a hard time focusing on Him, and got distracted halfway through..
so after Pastor Ming prayed (and i thought he was going to ask us to take our seats), he suddenly said that he was led by the Spirit to wanna pray for people who haven’t really felt a father’s love before..
and before i could do anything, i had already felt the prompting in my heart (and here’s where the climax begins) to go for the altar call!

while standing at the front, Pastor Ming asked us to visualise ourselves being led by God into the Outer Courts, the Brazen Altar, the Laver, the Holy Place with the Table of Showbread & the Golden Lampstand, and then finally, the Holy of Holies…..
“visualise yourself walking into the HoH, with the Ark of the Covenant & the Mercy Seat in front of you.. you’re in a place where there is no light illuminating, and you’re in complete darkness..”
“and now, you feel God’s presence surrounding the Ark of the Covenant, and all around you…………..”
suddenly, i saw a picture of myself, together with Jesus, standing in front of the Ark, and i was immersing myself into God’s presence, with the glory of God illuminating the whole place..
i felt the peace, the lightness, the tangible presence & all my burdens lifted up to God at the instant..
and there i was, hugging unto Jesus..
BAM! i was SOOOOOOOOO totally hit by His presence & His Fatherly love, that i wept & wept nonstop…..
tears just kept on flowing…….
MAN, it really was a once in a lifetime experience, and words are unable to explain it!

i hope that whenever i feel down, this post would remind me of the agape love that God has given to us..
to remind me of the first love that i have never felt in my whole entire life!